Blacking out on the train
One thing that bums me out is the commute to work everyday. The fastest way I figured out was to take the train, shortening my commute to half an hour. It is way more expensive than taking the bus/subway but saves me 2/3rd of the time! Anyways, this post is not about how I get to work everyday… but about the people in Toronto.
Yesterday as I was making myself to work, for the first 15 minutes, I felt completely fine. I was reading the newspaper and listening to music. All of a sudden, everything turned black and I couldn’t see anything. Not completely black, but everything looked like static and I couldn’t see anything clearly. I remember looking at my feet but couldn’t see my shoe.
Now the point is not the part where I almost passed out with reasons I still do not know, but the fact that I was gasping for air, holding on to the wall, couldn’t hold on to the newspaper in my hand and my purse and pretty much kneeling on the ground, yet NO ONE has bothered to ask me “are you okay?”
After 10 minutes, of praying, just hoping I will not pass out and trying to gain control, I was finally able to see and stand up but was still feeling anxious and sweaty. The train stopped in the middle for a two second delay. I swear I was just thinking to myself “this is such an awful morning…”. Longest two seconds of my life.
I looked around. Still, no one seemed to care. Was I not being dramatic enough? I was too in pain to ask for help, but were my body actions not enough to get help? There was a washroom near me but I was too afraid to go in there and actually pass out in there.
I made it to work, and I was feeling a lot better. My coworker was afraid I was low on sugar, so I bought myself a cinnamon bun. I don’t think that’s the reason though. I don’t know, but I feel a lot better now and I’ll probably do a blood test soon just to make sure.
Sure, I could have been perceived as a crazy person. Maybe that’s why no one wanted to help me… I don’t know. I guess I expected someone on a train of professional individuals (because majority of the train riders are working downtown) would be kind enough to help me.
Thoughts in my head were “wow, are you kidding me? No one is going to help me. Do I honestly have to pass out for someone to help me?” Oh humanity.
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Work Days
I almost lost my entire blog 2 seconds ago, since I noticed I couldn’t access my admin page, but phew, I fixed it!
I’ve been working for two weeks so far and honestly, this is so much better than going to school. Sure, my schedule is not as flexible anymore and I can’t take naps whenever I want anymore but the level of stress is just not as crazy, at least for my position now. All I do is wake up, take the train, get a cup of coffee, go to work, code, code, code, lunch and slack, go home, sleep, repeat! I personally love it, and I know I’ll love it even more when I get paid at the end of the month!
I’m learning so much, and it’s slowly guiding me back on the path of realizing exactly what I want to achieve, and what my dreams and goals are. This is an amazing opportunity and I can never stop being grateful for it.
What is this? MOTHER’S DAY GIFT! Getting someone a gift is honestly the hardest job in the world, unless you know exactly what that person wants. I got my mom and grandma some hand treatment set, and some adorable cards from Hallmark. My grandma’s English is very limited so I thought this 3D card (that flower thing) would be most suitable for her! Oh the wonders you can find at Hallmark.
Happy Mother’s Day to all the moms out there! Oh, and for those who have HelloCotten, add me! beeli
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End of April?
Is it really the end of April already? The next four months, I’ll be on my work term. I’ll be working full time. Despite people telling me that I’ll probably voluntarily insist to go back to school, I don’t think I’ll ever have the mindset of that. I love working, I love making money and I definitely do not enjoy studying.
I’ve been off school for one week! I bought a few clothes for work, still on the hunt for more “work clothes” though. Not too formal, but can’t be too formal. This is tough…
I am so excited to see my high school friends tonight! It’s been a busy, busy week, but it’s so nice not to worry about school for once!